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Over the years I've dealt with being fired, poor, homeless, not to mention some time as a single parent after my wife's accident left her unable to parent for the better part of a year. There’ve been some real highlights too, the resurrection of our marriage, the continuing joy of being a parent and now a grandparent. Through all that and more I have been an author and reviewer. None of it stopped me from writing though some caused more turmoil for my characters.
The first thing to slow the flow of words is the literal pain in the neck which I carry around as a daily challenge. Think of a mild migraine headache which started some five years ago and hasn’t let up since. If I listed all the things I've tried in that time I would double the word count for this post. Let's just say, if you've thought of it, I have tried it.
So what does this have to do with writing? Imagine my capacity to get through the day as an eight ounce glass of water. In a normal day I might use four to six ounces to do the things I do, including being a loving husband and an author/editor. The left over goes into a reserve which I can draw on during family crises or NaNoWriMo.
Dealing with the effects of the pain takes about two or three ounces. Not too bad, I'm over some days and under others. Problem is I don't sleep well, so my total capacity is lowered to five or six ounces. On a good day I have nothing left, on a bad day, I'm overdrawn.
What happens now is I take the part of the day between the cracks and I write. Mostly working on my client's books to not fall too far behind. That's important, as I need the editing money to pay the bills, not to mention my commitment to help those authors with their craft.
In the remaining cracks, in the car or grocery line, at a coffee shop waiting, in the wee hours of the night when sleep is scarce, I write my stories in my head. Over and over and over so I won't forget them. Then with five minutes here or ten minutes there I type them into the computer.
I'm a writer, I write. That sounds trite until you've spent ten minutes staring at the screen trying to remember what you blocked out at the store. Yet the words build up, the story takes shape. I edited four stories for release as a collection last Fall. I have a novel making the rounds and a novella to be released in October. I plan the impossible and by God's grace and my wife's understanding make it happen.
I'm a writer so I write, even when it is impossible to write I write. I've typed pages with my eyes closed because of the pain. Because I'm a writer.
When I die, my heirs will find unfinished stories on my computer.
One last thing about writing and pain, I believe my writing is richer, has more depth. I know pain so I can write pain, my characters can be twisted by life and still be whole. And one more blessing yet, they may find their way free.
And in that second, that moment of transported joy, I become free too.
I am not made out of my pain, but out of the stories I've been given to tell.